Cling on to the Hope

We can’t deny what the truth is
We all live projections and dualities
Inside there is a deep complex web of thoughts
and feelings that keeps us
alive or scared or sad or hurt.

Cling all you can
For one day you will know
That if it was an anchor
Supposed to hold you tight
Or something that didn’t let you swim
For you might be born for the sea
When the pirate would come in your life
You will realize it all, the mermaid you are !

Cheers.

Way too many questions !!!

​I have been thinking a lot about the entire episode. Where it went wrong or did it even. Was it me or was it you?

Did I assume a lot on my front or did you just hide something you shouldn’t have !

I understood you so well and I cared for you. I was confident about your nature and my confidence made you feel happy. You got through the tough times.

Initially I took it as my purpose to get you to your dream and it did happen. I am not sure if that was how it was happened and irrespective of me or someone else, you would have nailed it.

I am not able to pin down on what exactly is bothering me.

Is it that – why did I ever think that it was going to be us ?

Is that why am I unable to settle down with a composed feeling ?

Is the point that I missed on the important fact about you having a boyfriend?

Or is it that I am trying to find a means to blame it on you for hiding it?

Or is it that I am trying to find a perfect explanation for it and I do have that but I am not able to accept it in completeness!

If we being together was for a purpose then is it still going to be ?

I need to just get it through my head and listen to my voices.

I never thought anything romantic about you. I didn’t think anything. But you sure are an amazing person. The fact that I found someone who thinks a lot like me might be a reason I got so connected and that’s well understood.

I may be then after so much speculation – worried about if it is going to persist?

Are we going to stay friends for long ?

Is your hero going to accept it ? Am I worried about the future and separation?

Is it because I have seen examples in past of separation with people whom I had great connections?

Is it because people can’t accept or events break relationships(romantic or otherwise) !!

Am I worried that I focus in the present and I continue to be with you the way I am and one day an event will shatter it down completely – either from your end or mine ?

And then what will happen of me or for that matter what will happen of you ?

I know no one has control of future, but I have been through it all and everytime I think it’s different but the result is same and I am making an attempt to deal it well. So ?

What is it exactly?

Why am I so unsettling about this..

What is that even if I have an explanation I cannot come down to a concrete thoughts?

Because I don’t have your voice on this ?

Because I feel that you feel that separation is inevitable?

Is it because currently you have a strong connection at your front and I am currently not attached anywhere ?

Or is it that we have never been in touch face to face ?

Is it the classic dilemma of being so close yet so far away that never exists?

Pause. See. Restart.

Arise. Awake. Stop not until thy goal is achieved.

And what after that? You get lost?

Take a pause in whatever you are doing. Even stop reading the post for a minute.

O.K.

Now read.

You see when you take a conscious pause in whatever you are doing, you put efforts to see what’s happening in your surroundings and you come back to present world with your senses active.

We are driven by our subconscious in most of our daily activities. We don’t put a lot of efforts to sit in the couch and enjoy our favorite TV show. While browsing through internet most of the stuff we read or glance through, is not processed consciously.

We have been running a race in circle. Without an end line, we keep running in the laps, but even faster. We have no where to go.

So rather instead, don’t run blindly. Scoring a perfect GPA might not be something that you want.

Whatever you are running after in life 

  • Take a P.A.U.S.E
  • See. Observe. Record. Process.
  • Restart or Resume