You once said
“I don’t have peace. I have been going crazy thinking a lot in the last six months. Life is shit!”
It’s not just you, I was equally in pain and worry. I haven’t slept peacefully in the last one year and haven’t had time for myself.
I forget the world
I forget myself
All that remains
Is how you are
And what you feel
I loose meaning to what happens around me
Now the inner soul is breaking bit by bit.
Time fades away everything and I don’t want that time to come.
Everytime you said goodnight and went offline, I talked to you in my thoughts for an hour.
I cannot fall asleep.
I rewind what you said
What you felt
What you gone through
How can I make things better
How can I love you more
How can I make you happy
Where I can improve
Slowly bit by bit I am coming to a point where I can match up with you.
I am in a state Where I can’t speak
I can’t say things
I am not able to tell what I want or what I like
All I am waiting for us you
Everything is on hold
Yet I am happy with you
I just want to let you know
That every day it mattered to me
Everytime you felt bad and I was at fault
I felt worse about myself
My eyes pain
Nothing did stop me
For I know
You are precious
And I am willing to do everything
Even if you said bad things to me I know inside you want to be with me and even though I wanted to I couldn’t because of time limits n distance
I don’t know what else I have to offer
In this love.