You once said “I don’t have peace. I have been going crazy thinking a lot in the last six months. Life is shit!”
It’s not just you, I was equally in pain and worry. I haven’t slept peacefully in the last one year and haven’t had time for myself. With you I forget the world I forget myself For me All that remains Is how you are And what you feel I loose meaning to what happens around me Now the inner soul is breaking bit by bit. Time fades away everything and I don’t want that time to come. Everytime you said goodnight and went offline, I talked to you in my thoughts for an hour. I cannot fall asleep. I rewind what you said What you felt What you gone through How can I make things better How can I love you more How can I make you happy Where I can improve Slowly bit by bit I am coming to a point where I can match up with you. I am in a state Where I can’t speak I can’t say things I am not able to tell what I want or what I like All I am waiting for us you My job My life My room My lifestyle My friends My habits My dreams Everything is on hold Yet I am happy with you I just want to let you know That every day it mattered to me Everytime you felt bad and I was at fault I felt worse about myself My eyes pain My backpain Nothing did stop me For I know You are precious And I am willing to do everything For you Even if you said bad things to me I know inside you want to be with me and even though I wanted to I couldn’t because of time limits n distance I don’t know what else I have to offer In this love.
If God was there, why do good people have to suffer. Why do bad people get away easily.
Well then some say, that the bad is not dealt until it has surpassed the threshold. Because the path of unjust and unfair means leads to destruction and everyone seems to avoid it, even the Gods. While on the other hand the path of being good and doing good leads to a world of harmony and the greater good, giving you a leverage of happiness here and chances of afterlife without any troubles. Hence you must be tested and put through all the tough situations to ensure you deserve what you are about to be given. And those that you see having a peaceful and happy life, getting everything that they deserve, may be it’s their afterlife and they are reaping the benefits of the good they did back then.
And for you, may be you are given a second chance to prove your worth or for that matter your hundredth chance, before being sent down to the channel of unknown.
But you may argue – what if there was no afterlife ! What if we are all dupped psychologically to believe and live in a hope of afterlife.
Then so be it. Consider there isn’t any. Because there is none who has come back from there and those who can go pass lives, wouldn’t be able to tell us. Even if they did tell us, we would consider such people cynical.
So let us consider that there is no afterlife. Then what must propel you to be good and do good. What should be your motivating factor.
Within the single life span, we experience lots of ups and down. We see things going out of our control and we gaining control of life. It is matter of time, when you feel like a gladiator and another time when you feel like the weakest person on the Earth. You don’t need a second life or afterlife to know who you are and what happens in your life guided by what you do and what you believe.
Your choices and your actions will guide what happens of you. So if you are suffering for being good, then you must know that it is your choice and you intend to be good because that is your inherent nature.
When you feel that you are not able to breath properly you take some break and go in the open. You take deep breaths and try to fill your lungs with as much fresh air as you can and breath out slowly. If you didn’t do this ever, I recommend you try breathing in fresh air in the greenery or in open whenever you feel dizzy or drained out. Most of the time people tend to have tea, coffee, smoke or other things to calm their mind out from the load of work or life, but one the most simplest and easily accessible solution in everyone’s reach is breath in fresh air in the open.
Likewise there are situations in life when you feel you are stuck in it from all sides and there is no coming out of it. It’s like a bog you are sinking in. It may be something on the personal level or professional. Sometimes it has got to do with emotional or financial stuff. There is not more simple solution to complexities of life related love, relationships, responsibilities, job, finance, economics, politics and so on. But there is one thing that is in your hands and your thoughts can help you shape them.
Just like you go in the open space to get fresh air, you need to breath in fresh air about the circumstance you are in. You need to take a break from all the chaos and the vibes. Take away all the inputs you get from life and sit silently for sometime. Listen to your self. In the core of yourself you would know what you want and try to think about it. Do not bring in any thoughts from the world. You must have your own fresh thoughts and once you are sure about it, go pursue it.
It might seem very simple solution to the toughest problems of life, but if you keep trying it, it will soon become your habit and life will become cooler than ever like breathing in lung full of fresh Air.